Chapter 96 Sorry, I Love You

  It's already winter, and the snow has been falling non-stop since morning. Outside the window, everything is a vast expanse of white. I reached out to catch a snowflake, but before I could take a closer look, it melted away. Maybe it's because the heating is on in the hospital room!

  Tomorrow is Christmas, and Yezi and Zimo were just discussing it. They seem to have planned how to spend the holiday. I turned around and looked at Gu Yuexuan who was sleeping on the hospital bed. Tomorrow, I will spend Christmas with him.

  Suddenly a cold gust of wind blew by, and I couldn't help but shiver. I was about to close the window when a familiar figure downstairs caught my attention. It was him, Ouyang Luo. He was looking up at me, and despite the heavy snowfall, he wasn't wearing any rain gear. My heart involuntarily tightened.

  I suddenly turned around, grabbed my coat and ran out of the ward... It's been a month already, I miss him so much, really miss him...

  Snow, still falling heavily, I panted and arrived at the hospital's lawn, Ouyang Luo was standing in front of me. He wore a pure white sweater, his eyes fixed on me, he was still so handsome, but he had lost weight, hadn't eaten anything for a month?

  The two of us just kept staring at each other, as if our world had only each other...

  After a long time, Ouyang Luo finally spoke up and asked, "Is he... alright?"

  "Uh, okay, but still the same! How about you? You, are you okay?" Although I've heard some small things about him from Yexue's mouth over the past month, I want to know how he spent his entire month and why he lost so much weight.

  "I'm fine!" he replied indifferently.

  I nodded, "Don't you want to go up and take a seat?" He should be here to see Gu Yue Xuan, why doesn't he go up?

  "I've come looking for you!"

  "Huh?"

  "Tomorrow night, I'll be waiting for you by the riverbank, I have something to tell you!"

  "Tomorrow night?" Tomorrow is Christmas, I promised to spend it with Gu Yue Xuan. "What can't be said now?" Tomorrow night I'm busy!" Even a fool knows that's a rejection. Ou Yang's eyes flashed with a hint of loss, and even the maple leaf-shaped earrings on his left ear lost their usual sparkle.

  Sorry, Ouyang Luo...

  "I'll be waiting for you over there until you show up!" Ouyang Luo said resolutely.

  "I didn't say I had nothing to do? I won't go!" Tears welled up in my eyes, but I couldn't cry. I turned around and faced away from him, "Xuan needs to change his dressing now, I have to go inform the doctor, goodbye!" I made up a random excuse and said it out loud, and then my eyes became like a broken faucet, with tears continuously flowing down. Sorry, Ouyang Luo, even though I really liked you, we can't be together, no, I've already hurt Xuan, I don't want to hurt you too...

  Ouyang Luo, I'm sorry, I love you...

  I ran all the way to the hospital's path, sat on a stone bench and cried out loud... God in heaven, please accept my prayer, I hope Xuan can wake up, Luo can be happy...

  "Do you want a tissue?" A soft, melodious female voice appeared beside my ear. I sniffled and lifted my head to see a pale hand holding out a tissue in front of me. She was very pretty with long hair that seemed about the same length as mine. Her appearance made her seem like an angel, except for one thing - she was sitting in a wheelchair. She was a patient...

  "Huh?" She waved a tissue in front of me, and I was stunned. I awkwardly took the tissue from her hand and said "thank you".

  "You all love each other, right?" She said suddenly. I looked at her with some confusion.

  "That boy who was just with you! Hehe, sorry about that, I wasn't intentionally looking, it's just that I was also looking at the snow over there!" She reminded me, and I suddenly realized she was talking about Ouyang Luo. As she spoke, she smiled apologetically, looking very cute.

  "It's clear from the way you've been gazing at each other that you both deeply love each other! But why are you crying?"

  I smiled at her and said, "Yes, I really like him, but we can't be together!"

  "So you cried?" I was a bit surprised by her response, because I thought she would ask me why.

  I didn't respond to her, she lifted her head and gazed at the sky, saying: "Actually, knowing that someone deeply loves you is really a blessing!" A hint of desolation flashed across her face. Suddenly, I felt a pang of heartache.

  "You also have someone you like, right?" I asked.

  She smiled at me and said, "Well, but I don't even remember what he looks like, isn't that funny?"

  I was taken aback, and she continued: "You know? I'm about to die, but I really want to see him again, even if it's just a glimpse!" As she spoke, two crystal tears fell from her eyes.

  Is she going to die soon? I didn't know there were people in this world who were so pitiful. She must have loved that person a lot.

  "So in love... so in love... I am so in love with you..." A ringtone suddenly sounded, and I patted my pocket. Before I even touched my phone, I heard a "Hello?" It turned out it wasn't my phone ringing, but hers - she actually had the same ringtone as me.

  "Alright, I'll be right there," she said, hanging up the phone. She turned to me and said, "I'm leaving now. I don't know why you two can't be together, but I hope you can seize happiness because it will quietly slip away from you, and by then it will be too late to regret it, so grab hold of it!"

  I knew she was trying to encourage me, but I really couldn't be with Ouyang Luo anymore. Thinking so, I still nodded at her.

  She nodded in satisfaction and waved at me before pushing the wheelchair away, stopping halfway and saying "Wish you happiness!" with a smile before leaving.

  Happiness? I have already taken away Gu Yue Xuan's happiness, I don't want to take away Ouyang Luo's as well...

  A person sat there for a long time again, and my clothes and head were all snowflakes. I stood up, patted the snow on my body, and returned to the ward again.

  The temperature difference is really big, I took off my coat as soon as I entered the house. Gu Yue Xuan was still fast asleep, I sat down beside the bed and looked at him sleeping soundly. "Xuan, tomorrow is Christmas, I'm thinking of what gift to give you? Ah, so failed, don't even know what you like, strawberry ice cream? But now it's winter, can't eat it! Ah! I thought of something, but can't tell you now! Tomorrow will be a surprise!"

  ...Although he didn't move at all, I still like talking to him.

  "What about you? Are you going to give me something? Actually, as long as you can wake up, that's enough... I really hope that when I come tomorrow, I'll see you getting out of bed, and then call me "Long Hair Girl" again. It's been a while since I've heard you call me that!"

  I chatted with him for a long time, well, I should say it was just talking to myself. I got up and helped him tidy up his quilt, "Xuan, I'm going home, see you tomorrow!" I took a look at the sleeping him, turned around and left the ward.

  My Christmas wish is for Gu Yue Xuan to wake up and for Ouyang Luo to be happy...