That's insane! I come back and see another rating, and almost up to 150 followers! That blows my mind.

  But listen, I am not doing good right now. I was about to post a chapter and was supposed to be yesterday. All I needed was the images. But during that day I got some very bad news.

  My friend and pen pal from Thailand of like 5 years, who is probably the last person I know who has seen me during my drug abuse days, who's seen me travel, on the streets, and who's seen me tweaking and drinking, who has cheered me on at being sober, who was also the owner of a discord server, got exposed in his own discord as a pdf file. And I've watched that server grow into one of the most active communities.

  The situation has me so confused, so stand off-ish, disgusted, and I also miss the guy. He disappeared, off the face of the internet.

  I've seen the evidence, and it's real and was really gross. This is not one of those fake predator catcher videos that now disgust me even more after this; the things I saw were real and shocking to me. It's public and it's like a trophy sitting there on the discord. I'm reluctant to even be in it anymore, because now I'll know it exists there forever, and I just can't deal with that.

  The story has been illicitly taken; should you find it on Amazon, report the infringement.

  I've sent him an email hoping to maybe talk him again. But I'd be lying if I said, that I see him as the same person he always was. I definitely am so hesitant to be involved with this guy, and I literally can't see him as he was before anymore.

  But I need to deal with this, both emotionally, and if he even does respond. This is huge news, and I just need to deal with this somehow.

  So here's the deal, I need to save up money again anyway. I will be back, May 7 with that chapter. And we'll be even stronger than before, hopefully with some new external sources coming out within that time as well, and maybe even the book cover from our artist because that is almost done as well.

  Our current goal of 200 followers, if it does reach during that amount of time, I can't guarantee that the song will be posted if 200 followers are reached during that time. But I will guarantee, that is the first thing I'll be working on with one chapter posted each week. And this is most likely what will happen anyway because followers will increase and I will need to catch up.

  Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. I love this story too much to abandon it and too attached to these characters now anyway.

  Thank you for the understanding and patience. I'll see you on May 7 with chapter 30.