First quarrel

  I don't know if Yu Tian was really asleep, but when he pinched my earlobe and softly called out my name, this small detail made me secretly happy for a long time.

  The next few days, Yu Tian and I spent our time in a daze. Every day, as soon as I got up, I would go to his house to cook and clean, then we would eat together, after eating, we would hug each other for a while, then watch movies. The next day, 2012, Japan sank, a disaster movie with a lot of water.

  I like watching disaster movies, which is probably related to my innate pessimism. Otherwise, I wouldn't have run away without even asking Yu Tian after hearing a few words from Xiao Xing.

  The pessimism and inferiority complex in his bones are really annoying things.

  After watching a disaster movie, I started watching Korean dramas. Either the male lead dies or the female lead leaves. Generally, I won't cry, but my eyes will definitely feel sour for a while. Yu Tian would occasionally rub my eyes and then hand me a bottle of eye drops.

  The only time he was unhappy was when I was watching "Blue Life and Death" and I was holding the corner of the quilt with a bitter face, Yu Tian suddenly said "What kind of brother and sister is this, it's really perverted", I stared at him and he went to smoke on the balcony by himself.

  I also sulked for a while, then still went to find him, "Alright, alright, I won't look anymore."

  Yu Tian only put out the cigarette, but as compensation, I had to accompany him to watch a movie. It wasn't until he was done that I realized it was an H-movie! I knew Yu Tian actually wanted to see my embarrassed expression. This kind of childish thing should have been done years ago, and now it's not too late to make up for it.

  After going home, we continued to make phone calls and send texts. I spent a tenth of my time every day staring foolishly at my mobile phone.

  Of course, Lin Yue also goes home on time every day. He no longer stays out late and I always feel like he's supervising me. Because Lin Yue goes home on time every day, I won't stay too late with Yu Tian either.

  After Yu Tian's injury was almost healed, we started holding hands and strolling through the vegetable market, pressing the road, and selecting clothes for each other. I asked Yu Tian why he bought me such a revealing skirt last time, and Yu Tian said, "Really want to know?", I nodded, and then he told me that it was what he wanted to see himself. Yu Tian also gave me several small gifts, but I didn't like the expensive ones, and the flowers seemed too flashy. Every time I brought gifts back home, I couldn't escape Lin Yue's eyes, and he didn't show obvious dissatisfaction, even coming over to ask which one I liked more.

  I'm just awkward by myself.

  A few more days passed, Yu Tian started to get busy. Although he was still in the recovery period and didn't need to go to the company, he had already begun working from home, while I was responsible for serving tea and water, as well as organizing documents.

  We have less time to fool around, I learned from Yu Tian that Lin Yue was promoted. The two companies used to be cooperative, but now that Yu Tian's website is up and running, they are completely in opposition. Whatever he does, Lin Yue will definitely do the opposite. Moreover, Lin Yue also has a lawyer's license, which makes him more skilled at exploiting legal loopholes than Yu Tian.

  Those things were told to me by Lin Jing, Yu Tian never mentioned them to me. I don't know if he was afraid that I would misunderstand him complaining about something or if he simply didn't want the name of this potential rival for my affections, Lin Yue, to come up between us.

  Sometimes, some things are clearly known but still have to be endured and pretended to be unknown, which is also quite hard.

  One day, I couldn't bear it anymore and lost my temper with Yu Tian. That morning, I also learned from Lin Jing that Yu Tian had been robbed of a business by Lin Yue, and because he hadn't obtained certain permits, there was a possibility he would be sued. I knew I should go argue with Lin Yue about this matter, but for some reason, I ended up losing my temper at Yu Tian instead. The trigger was when I answered a phone call from him - originally, I was quite happy that Yu Tian let me play with his phone, but it just so happened that the call was from a young girl, and I guessed she was someone Yu Tian had been involved with, or even slept with.

  The girl's purpose was very direct, borrowing money.

  Yu Tian's handling method is also very direct, give!

  But I'm not happy about it, this is the first time I know that Yu Tian is such a generous person, to put it mildly, in the future we'll be waiting for him to eat more vinegar, to put it severely, he won't make a living, and our little family will become an ATM machine for his many ex-girlfriends.

  Before this, I also received some ambiguous messages on Yu Tian's phone and quarreled with him, but every time Yu Tian would come over to coax me. But I forgot that men hate it the most when women are unreasonable and make a fuss, this time he didn't take the initiative to coax me.

  After I made a fuss, Yu Tian glanced at me and continued to work with his head down, too lazy to explain.

  His reaction gave me a feeling that he was already tired of me, so many days had passed and the sheets were still not rolled up, he might have thought that he spent too much time on me, and also my brother who would bother him later was behind me, so he was tired.

  I went to the kitchen to cook, and when I was chopping vegetables, I accidentally cut my fingernail. Maybe because I wasn't focused enough before, that sudden pain made me shout out loud.

  I don't dare look.

  Yu Tian heard my voice and immediately ran over, I flung myself into his arms, closing my eyes tightly. Yu Tian took me to the hospital, he didn't drive a car so we took a taxi instead because he wanted to hold me. I was in pain but endured it without crying, when I became slightly more awake I asked, "Yu Tian, are my fingers still there?"

  Yu Tian said, "What's wrong with you, it's not that serious."

  "Really? Don't lie to me." My voice was especially weak, and I leaned into his arms as I spoke, "Did you take my handcuffs off?"

  Yu Tian didn't say another word, he pressed my head again with force, and I vaguely felt his tears hitting my face.

  They say that the ten fingers are connected to the heart, and the pain in my finger was not going to become numb after a while. By the time I arrived at the hospital, I felt like my lips were ice-cold. It wasn't even ten minutes later. In the emergency room, I saw the poor finger for the first time. Fortunately, the finger was still there, but the nail had been split in half from the middle, with a bloody seam in between, and the flesh inside had also been cut.

  Yu Tian held me in his arms and asked the doctor what to do?

  We both thought it would be just one injection and then bandage treatment, but the result was that soft voice saying a sentence, "What can we do, pull it out."

  I was so scared that I withdrew my hand, fortunately Yu Tian pressed it down in time.

  I looked at him and said I'm scared in a particularly broken voice, then quietly burst into tears.

  Yu Tian also burst into tears, I knew he was heartbroken and blaming himself. So I gritted my teeth and said I wasn't afraid. I urged him to go pay the money, I'll wait for him here.

  Yu Tian was unwilling at first, he said either take me with him or let the nurse help us queue up to pay. But there were so many patients in the hospital, which nurse had time to help us queue up to pay? I also said I didn't want to move, Yu Tian had no choice but to go by himself.

  I knew the queue was going to be very long, after Yu Tian left I asked the doctor, "Can you help me with it now?" I couldn't even say the word extraction, just thinking about it made me feel painful.

  The doctor probably thought we didn't look like the kind of people who couldn't afford to pay, and besides, it really wasn't a big deal, so he agreed. The process was very simple, they gave me an injection of anaesthetic in my finger, after a few minutes they asked me to turn around, actually the anaesthetic hadn't fully taken effect yet, fortunately the doctor's movements were quite quick, I felt a bit of pain but managed to bear it. I didn't want to cry and scream in front of so many people.

  But the feeling afterwards wasn't any better than before. The reason I didn't wait for Yu Tian to come back was that I didn't want him to see me in pain.

  The doctor reminded me to come back for a follow-up, and later I may need to make some minor adjustments. Otherwise, the grown-out nail will be very ugly, and even if it's fixed, it will definitely not be the same as the original one.

  Yu Tian came back with the payment when my fingers were already bandaged, he took a glance at me from afar and his heart ached even more than before.

  I smiled and said it's okay, it doesn't hurt anymore, but sweat kept dripping down like rain.

  Yu Tian accompanied me in laughter, he gently hugged me, coaxing me softly, it doesn't hurt anymore. Then, it really didn't hurt that much anymore.

  That night, I stayed in Yu Tian's small house for the first time. He also put all his work on hold despite my objections. He said he couldn't focus and that I was more important than his work. When he said this, he was particularly firm, and it was a bit heartbreaking to see him look so handsome.

  When I felt a little better, I called my mom and told her I wasn't coming back.

  The old lady obviously heard that my voice was not right and asked if I was sick.

  I muttered that I had a cold, and indeed, after feeling unwell for so long, my voice sounded like it too. My mom didn't ask any more questions and just told me to get some rest early.

  This evening's dinner was made by Yu Tian, and after it was done, he fed me spoonful by spoonful. Actually, I wasn't in that much pain anymore, probably because I had gotten used to it, or my healing ability was amazing, but instead, Yu Tian's movements became even more pale. However, at this time, he still had to give me a sense of dependence, so he couldn't let his pain show on his face where I could see it.

  And I also truly want to rely on him for the first time.

  I said, "Next time I'll wait for you to accompany me before letting the doctor operate."

  He pinched my nose, "You dare to have a next time."