Chapter 55 Heartache

  Subconscious reactions are often not driven by emotions, but sometimes they can reveal a person's most primitive and true feelings. A cat suddenly darting out from the side of the road will cause the driver to subconsciously slam on the brakes, and the noise from the brakes combined with my concern for Qin Ke Yi will make me subconsciously turn around abruptly.

  Qin Keyi was also standing still at this moment, gazing at me from across the car, and the tense and concerned expression in his eyes that had not yet dissipated made my heart feel like it had suddenly caught fire. The state of our gaze being locked was broken by the opening of the car door between us, and a woman walked out of the car, seemingly very young, smiling as she approached Qin Keyi and began to say something.

  "What's wrong?" I quickly walked to Qin Keyi's side and asked with concern. The woman who was talking to Qin Keyi at this time looked at me curiously, then looked at Qin Keyi again.

  "This is my friend! Alright, I'm going with you!" Qin Ke Yi said to the woman, then glanced at me before getting into the car with her, leaving me standing there in a daze until the car disappeared from my line of sight...

  At night, I was worried about Qin Ke Yi all the time, and didn't know what had happened. I made four or five phone calls but no one answered. So in anxiety, I fell asleep vaguely for a whole night.

  After waking up in the morning, I continued to worry about Qin Ke Yi and hesitated whether to attend the dance party tonight. Originally, when saying goodbye to Qin Ke Yi yesterday, everything seemed to have come to an end, and attending the dance party had lost its meaning. However, judging from Qin Ke Yi's reaction after the screeching sound of the brakes yesterday, it seems that I haven't been completely sentenced to death yet. At a loss for what to do, I decided to use the stupid method of flipping a coin to decide my fate. After almost turning over all my pockets and drawers, I finally found a 50-cent coin, and it's strange how coins always seem to appear in your pocket and line of sight when you don't need them, but when you do need them today, they become elusive and hide from you.

  "The words represent going, the national emblem represents not going!" I muttered to myself as I flipped the coin into the air. Due to the size of the 50-cent coin, it was harder to catch than a 1-yuan or 10-cent coin, so I couldn't help but feel a few more worries as I prepared to catch it. Under the influence of these worries, my movements were very uncoordinated, and before I knew it, the coin slipped from my hand and fell to the ground, rolling under the sofa. As soon as I thought of the philosophical phrase "good things come to those who wait", I hastily moved the sofa away.

  The national emblem was lying on the ground, and from the concept of scientific rigor, I think this result seems to be not authoritative, so I picked it up and threw it into the air again...

  When the "word" was lying happily in my hand, I decided to stop this foolish behavior, and at the same time, I was relieved that God and my heart finally resonated. So I started to bathe and refresh myself, making some necessary preparations, nervously waiting for the arrival of the dance party...

  "Ah, Ken! You... you're here!" Just as I appeared at the entrance of the dance hall, I coincidentally bumped into Zhang Wei, who had just finished a phone call. Upon seeing me arrive, she seemed to be taken aback.

  "Can I go in?"

  "After... after." All my worries from last night disappeared when I heard this sentence.

  "Alas! Kang Jian! You... are going in!"

  "Really! Standing outside!"

  "Be careful! Or... don't go in." Zhang Yi said hesitantly.

  "Why?! It was you who asked me to come that day!" I curiously asked Zhang Wei.

  "Hmm...? But... the plan hasn't changed quickly!" Zhang Wei said in a low voice with insufficient air.

  "What's going on? What's changed? Is something wrong?"

  "Nothing... sigh! ...Anyway, it's better not to go in..."

  "The more you act like this, the more I want to go in, what's going on?"

  "Nothing... Ah...! Let's go!" Zhang Wei let out a sigh and walked into the ballroom with me, coincidentally bumping into Guo Cheng who was standing at the entrance to greet guests.

  "Ah, you're here!" Guo Cheng said, seeing my arrival, with a tone and expression similar to Zhang Wei's.

  "Hmm! Which one?"

  "Ah... They'll change clothes in the back and perform a modern dance in a bit!"

  "What's wrong with you guys today? You're all talking weirdly! What's going on?" I asked in confusion, seeing that Guo Cheng also had a strange expression.

  "No! No! Marco is over there, you go find him!" Guo Cheng said hesitantly. I followed the direction Guo Cheng pointed and found Marco. There were already many people around Marco's location, but judging from their clothes, most of them wore school uniforms, with a few wearing suits and sports shoes, they must be freshmen. This might be another stupid move by the student union to make the dance party less dull, using the despicable reason "students who don't attend will be deducted credits" to cheat people into coming. I wonder if this tradition will continue to exist as long as the student union, a puppet organization, exists.

  "Brother...... you really came!" Mark's expression was also surprisingly similar to that of the previous two people.

  "It's me! The person in front of you is really Kang Jian! Genuine! What's wrong with you all today?!"

  "It's nothing!"

  "There's nothing strange about it, but somehow everyone seems a bit odd, as if they don't want me here!"

  "What's going on! The show has started! Let's watch the show!" At this time, the two hosts walked to the middle and began to formally sing praises, then introduced the arrival of a high-ranking official from the student union. Despite the boos and shouts from below, the student union officials were still calm and smiling, greeting the audience, making me feel that there is indeed an essential difference between student union cadres and ordinary students.

  After the host's opening remarks, with the music starting, 5 or 6 girls led by Qin Ke Yi walked onto the stage to start dancing a highly dynamic modern dance. Passionate, sexy, unrestrained, beautiful…, one after another, words that could describe Qin Ke Yi's performance at this moment kept popping up in my mind until all the words accumulated in my brain were used up...

  "Want to go with me to the bathroom?" Marco suddenly said to me when the modern dance was about to end. So I and Marco got up and walked towards the bathroom.

  "Kang Jian! Have you ever thought about what would happen if Qin Ke Yiwanyi was with someone else?" Ma Ke asked while washing his hands.

  "I didn't think of that! I just wanted to resolve the conflict between us. What's the point of thinking about those things, anyway? The possibility of something like this happening is very small!" I asked nonchalantly while standing at the bathroom door.

  "Now... let's think about it!"

  "What do you mean!?" I seemed to understand some implication in Mark's words, but wasn't quite sure.

  "Great! You're doing great! It's just that sometimes you're too full of yourself! A girl like Qin Ke Yi has a constant stream of pursuers, and there are no shortage of people with better conditions than yours. How can you be so sure that Qin Ke Yi will fall head over heels for you, especially when you've only known each other for less than two months?"

  "What exactly do you want to say?" I shouted excitedly at Marco.

  "Qin Keyi... just got a boyfriend." Ma Ke said softly with his head down.

  "It's impossible! We just parted ways a few days ago!!"

  "This boy's family and Qin Ke Yi's family have known each other for generations, they've been familiar with each other since childhood, it seems like the two of them were also infatuated with each other for a period of time. Later, the boy went to England, just returned this month, and the two of them got in touch again! They're a match made in heaven, what are you to Qin Ke Yi? Logically speaking, they're the original pair, you're the third party! Or maybe you're just a substitute! Moreover, his family conditions are better than yours! His family is wealthy too! If I were Qin Ke Yi, I'd choose him too!"

  "You won't be colluding with Qin Ke to fool me, will you?" I asked suspiciously.

  "How many years have we been brothers? What can I not stand up for you?! Go take a look now! Qin Ke Yi has brought everyone today! The one dancing with her now must be that kid!" After hearing Ma Ke's words, I quickly rushed out of the bathroom and ran to the entrance of the dance floor. At this time, Qin Ke Yi was indeed dancing with a boy who was dressed in mature fashion, except for height, I basically didn't surpass him at all.

  Although the fact was already in front of me, I still stubbornly hoped that Qin Ke Yi could tell me all this in person, so I controlled my excited emotions and slowly walked to Qin Ke Yi and that boy's side.

  "Excuse me! May I have a word with Kei?" I interrupted the dancing girls, saying to the boy in front of me in a polite but firm tone.

  "Good!" After looking at me and then at Qin Ke, the boy nodded in agreement to my request and turned back to his seat.

  "May I?" I extended my hand and invited Qin Ke Yi, who was standing awkwardly in place with a embarrassed expression, to dance. Qin Ke Yi hesitated for a moment before slowly extending his hand to accept my invitation.

  "I heard you have a boyfriend now!?" I asked Qin Ke with a few awkward dance steps.

  "Hmm!" Qin Ke nodded slightly.

  "Look into my eyes! Say it again!"

  "To be exact, he's my fiancé! We got engaged last night!" Qin Ke Yi lifted her head and said to me in a firm tone. I finally understood what Qin Ke Yi had gone to do last night. Upon hearing this sentence, the only thing that could be felt at this moment was the tears swirling around my eyes and the heart-wrenching pain like being pricked by needles.

  "Then... congratulations..."

  "Thank you!"

  "Is there nothing more you want to say to me?"

  "I'll move out of your house as soon as possible...!"

  "Is there nothing else?"

  "Take care! You're really great! You'll find your own happiness!" When Qin Ke Yi said this sentence, which almost every couple says when they break up, it was like adding fuel to the fire, making me feel even more uncomfortable. The moment he said this, it meant that our feelings had completely dissipated into thin air. Perhaps the person who said it hoped to make the other person feel better, but the one who heard it would often feel even more heartbroken.

  "Stay with me... and let's finish this dance, shall we? We started in the music, so let's end it that way..."

  "Good..." And so we began to silently and slowly savor the last few minutes that belonged to us, at this moment scenes of Qin Ke Yi and I being together started flashing before my eyes, perhaps these things would all happen between Qin Ke Yi and another man in the future.

  "When you're embracing and passionately kissing another person, when you're lying in someone else's arms saying 'this feels so good', will you think of me? I keep asking myself over and over again, each time my heart aches..."

  "Kang Jian... The dance is over..."