Article 94
That day, we finally decided to withdraw from the dispute that had just arisen. It seems that Xile has been thinking about this moment for a long time, and she has lost sleep many nights thinking about where we should build our house. There's something strange - although there hasn't been any bloodshed, it seems like we've never lacked money to spend along the way, and in the end, we still have a lot left over, enough to last for a long time. As for this outcome, Xile had planned it out long ago. I started thinking, what does a woman need? And what I need, hasn't yet taken shape in my mind. Since that's the case, it's not bad to first fulfill someone else's wishes. Moreover, everything depends on one's thoughts, rather than current actions. I think, I'm just young and curious. And Xile, perhaps is just afraid that I'm too curious at a young age.
Two years later.?
It was a year of either drought or flood, the world was in chaos, the emperor died of illness, and the crown prince ascended to the throne. Compared to the joyful scene I remembered in the temple, it was even more desolate and chaotic. The great disaster that year brought joy. What kind of girl is this, I have lost my judgment, just like what she said before, she stole Wan Yong's so-called panacea, for such a shameful behavior, deep down inside me, I am greatly appreciative, I pretended to see her inner thoughts. It is indeed the case that everything depends on one's mind, not the current action.
I can say that this year's disaster is like this. The Central Plains are already in a state of cannibalism, and everyone has become bloodthirsty, creating a vicious cycle. Thin people are not eaten, only those with meat on their bones are chosen, and once they have some flesh, they are devoured by others at the slightest carelessness. I think that all so-called civilization and order are things that come after being full and warm, but when survival is difficult, it seems that the world, which seemed to be not bad, is actually inhumane. I think that my decision with Xi Le was correct. Regardless of whether Wan Yong's words were true or not, I will always watch the events of this world from my own world. I secretly congratulate myself on not being one of them.
