I should get a boyfriend now! (above)

  I should get a boyfriend now! (Up)

  Summer night forest, the wind blows through the dense leaves rustling, mixed with some shrill "know know" cicada and "wa wa" non-stop frog calls.

  Ning Zhiyun was oblivious to the commotion, his eyes fixed on the lines that stopped abruptly at fourteen years old, a complex expression on his face. Suddenly, he seemed to realize something and shook his head violently, followed by a look of remorse and self-reproach spreading across his small face.

  She slapped her forehead hard: Ah! Ning Zhi, what's wrong with you? If your brother likes women, as his sister, you should be happy for him, but why are you pulling his leg instead?

  Thinking of this, Ning Zhiyun really wanted to slap himself a few times until he woke up from his almost morbid state.

  Although she doesn't discriminate against homosexuals, and often sees two strange men walking together on the street, she would automatically match those seemingly intimate men into pairs in her mind and imagine their stories.

  But homosexuality is absolutely an outcast in the country, and that road is too difficult to walk. If possible, she would not want her brother to suffer that kind of pain. So, if her brother can gradually like women, she should be happy for him.

  Ning Zhiyun got into the car arranged by Uncle Xing, with a strong sense of self-loathing, self-reproach and self-disgust. Normally, she would chat with the driver, but today she was silent all the way until they arrived at her destination. After getting out of the car, she instructed the driver to pick her up at 10:30 sharp, then walked into Non-Fang with a heavy gait and a troubled look.

  When Ning Xiwei's phone call came, it was 9 o'clock again. Although she was still in self-loathing and disgust, there was a surge of impulse to know who the female soldier in the photo was and what relationship she had with her brother. In the end, she endured several times under her own warning.

  "Yuner, you seem a bit strange today, did something happen?" Her unusual tone and hesitant speech made Ning Xi, who was always sensitive to her sister's emotions on the phone, feel it naturally.

  "Brother, you say, if a girl reaches 22 years old and still hasn't had a romantic relationship, will she start thinking about unnecessary things and then become extremely mentally unbalanced?"

  Ning Zhiyun subconsciously attributed his unmentionable and strange thoughts about his brother to this reason, perhaps because he had never been in love before, so he overplaced his dependence and possessiveness on his most beloved brother.

  Ning Xiyu, who was originally sitting comfortably on the edge of the bed with her long legs crossed, chatting leisurely on the phone, suddenly had her heart racing "thump thump" a few times upon hearing her little sister's words, and she also stood up "whoosh" in an instant.

  "Yuner, something really did happen, didn't it? Tell brother, was it some stinky man who did or said something to you?"

  These days, the happy and carefree little sister suddenly mentioned this, leaving him caught off guard and his mind in disarray. Once again, he strongly felt that his little sister had grown up and was no longer the naive and innocent little girl she used to be.

  Has she begun to yearn for the doting of other men? Has she started wanting to pout at other men? And no longer just like before, only pouting at this older brother, throwing tantrums, and acting spoiled?

  Although he didn't know what specific psychological imbalance she was referring to. It just seemed that her words weren't specifically pointing to a particular man's problem, but rather the awakening of her strong desire for love in her heart. This desire made Ning Xi feel the enemy's strength. The unstoppable awakening of her instincts as a mature woman was a hundred times more terrifying than any man who had been circling around her!

  "Brother, it's not what you think. Don't guess randomly. I just suddenly realized that I'm already 22 years old, but I've never experienced the feeling of being in love before. Then, I would wonder if experiencing love once will make everything different!"

  Ning Zhiyun murmured in a low voice, from the age when emotions first awakened, watching as her good sisters around her paired up one after another, she had never yearned for it, nor discovered the necessity and urgency of falling in love, even more so, she hadn't found any lack or regret in not having romantic relationships during those few years of youth.

  But now that it involves her beloved brother, she can't help but think that maybe because of her own lack of romantic experience, she has transferred her dependence and possessiveness into a strange infatuation, which she has excessively imposed on her brother, and she strongly blames herself again!

  Is it because of this almost pathological dependence and overbearing mentality that she subconsciously thinks her brother should only belong to Ning Ziyun? And is it this subconsciousness that makes her unconsciously try to stop her brother from getting close to Li Yonglin? Is it this mentality that makes her feel a strong sense of disgust towards An Yu? And is it also this mentality that makes her have a huge rejection psychology towards that female soldier?

  Ning Zhiyun quickly analyzed her strange behavior and emotions over the past few days, and the more she analyzed, the more fearful and deeply shaken she became.

  Fortunately, I woke up before doing something even more outrageous, otherwise, who knows what other outrageous things I would have done due to my overbearing possessiveness towards my brother.

  It's true that when people reach a certain age, they should be doing what they're supposed to be doing at that age. No wonder Mom and Dad are so eager to arrange blind dates for my brother.

  Her forehead and the tip of her nose had unknowingly sweated a lot, Ning Zhiyun wiped it away with a tissue, lowered her head to look at the necklace she was wearing, and her hand unconsciously played with the heart-shaped pendant. Opening the heart-shaped pendant revealed a photo of herself and her brother, both smiling brightly.

  If you don't tell others that they are siblings, this kind of photo will definitely give people the wrong impression, thinking it's a sweet couple photo.

  So, it's because I lack romantic experience that I've developed an excessive dependence on my brother and a possessiveness that shouldn't exist?

  Ning Zhiyun let out a sigh of relief and thought, Fortunately, it's not too late now that I've discovered this!

  "Yuner, there's no rule that says you have to fall in love at the age of 22. Emotional matters can never be forced, I think it's best to just let things happen naturally. And most importantly, you need to meet the right person."

  Ning Xi never knew he was so inarticulate, no matter how he put it, he felt it wasn't right. Only now did he realize that in the face of his precious sister's terrifying awakening, his words and reasons seemed exceptionally pale and powerless, without any persuasive power.

  If his sister wants to fall in love, as her brother, he has no right to stop it and shouldn't stop it!

  His reason told him he was so, but his heart was gnawed by an intangible monster and tormented by a frightful something called conscience.

  Then, a voice in his heart cried out loudly, he didn't want her to fall in love! He didn't want her to be in love!

  This desire to monopolize his sister is a terrible emotion, an invisible heavy blow that has knocked him into the deepest part of hell from which there is no return!

  Digression

  Bamboo has always thought that its own fun is not small white fun (laughs)

  No matter which character, Bamboo tries to portray her/his psychology in a more detailed and deeper way, as the comments from friends have said, brother-sister taboo is a very entangled emotion, and Bamboo also tries his best to present this entangled process to everyone.

  So, perhaps some friends can't stand the overly delicate writing style of Bamboo and choose to leave, although Bamboo will feel sorry and indeed wants every friend to accompany him from beginning to end.

  But in the end, I understand that this is impossible, so to those who have stayed behind, thank you for recognizing and accepting my overly persistent writing style.

  Hugs, love you guys, and thank you for being with me and witnessing my progress all along.

  Bamboo is very happy to accept all good advice and welcomes everyone to leave a message for discussion.

  Bamboo will work hard and strive!

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